Monday, September 24, 2007


has crept in, again. But this time I find that I really, really want her to stick around. In fact, I'm not doing any of the things I could do to easily get rid of her. Like take my temperature in the morning. Or pee on a stick.

I have reevaluated my chart of this months' symptoms (minus any temperatures), in the context of my entire and exhaustive history of previous ovulations. I think that I probably ovulated on cycle day 28, 29 or 30. (I won't even get into the fact that I was so confused about last months' cycle and what to call "day one" of this cycle that days 28-30 might, in fact, be days 21-29.)

So, today is 12-14 dpo. I think I could take a pregnancy test today without it being too ridiculously premature. I have one in my night stand. I can not bring myself to do it.

Even if I only get one more day of groping my sore boobs and pretending this bloating and cramping are early pregnancy symptoms instead of pms, I want that one day.


Anonymous said...

Hi there,

I don't have a blog and only came upon yours a few months ago when I was researching my own infertility issues. In the months since, I have been checking in on occasion to see how things are going and hoping that you win your war. Yesterday, I liked your post. Who hasn't let hope creep in. I got my period yesterday... I hope that you do not! Best of luck... I am sending happy thoughts your way.

Anonymous said...

me too, is on the 12-14 dpo waiting. And like you, I couldn't bring myself to the test. Please hang on there, just wait...

Anonymous said...

Another day. Hope you are still there, still waiting, still in the hope. Be strong, be patient.