Wednesday, September 17, 2008

terrified is winning

Thank you all for your good thoughts. They mean so much to me. We have told very few people in "real life", so it's nice to know that you are out there.

I am terrified. I am so afraid that something terrible will happen and I will lose this pregnancy. Or worse, that I already have but I just don't know it yet.

Jack is not afraid. Not at all. He is waiting on me hand and foot so that I can rest. Today, on his lunch break, he went to B@bies R Us, "just to look around". He really thinks we are going to have a baby in May. And that I am gestating that baby at this very moment.

I want this so very badly. But I am having trouble believing it is possible.

Next peek inside is Thursday morning. Please still be there, little one, please.

7 comments:

swissmiss said...

My husband was like that too. I think it works out well: if we worry because we can't help it the optimistic partner is there to make sure the baby feels the positive vibes too. It's a good balance. If you're scared don't pretend you're not. Lean on Jack, and you'll find your comfort zone when you're ready.

Continuing to send you congratulations.

Bean said...

I'm so sorry -- terrified sucks! Especially at a time that should be happy. Got everything crossed that Thursday brings you more great news.

mnrn said...

Coming over from LFCA to say congrats on the pregnancy, and wishing you the very best! Good luck! Laura

Anonymous said...

Hang in there - you are in my thoughts and prayers and I can't wait to here that all is well after Thursday's appointment.

Hubby sounds awesome - gotta love these fella's of ours who keep us sane in moments where we are anything but!

Martha said...

Sending my best for the happiest of news on Thursday. Here from LFCA.

sara said...

I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you - update us when you can. I hope you had a great appointment :-)

Michelle said...

I wanted to say CONGRATULATIONS! I will keep you in my prayers! I hope everything goes good at your appointment.